Tuesday, November 9, 2010

facing the real world

I’ve been working at my job for almost a week, and things were getting better. I was able to contain my emotions better without the need for any crying or feeling sorry for myself. In fact, I was starting to look forward to my job instead of stressing if I’m about to mess something up.

Perhaps it was because I DID mess something up and was shouted at. But by doing that, the pressures were a bit lifted from my shoulders.

Perhaps it was the realizations that I’m already a college graduate and I need to get my ass of the ground and start seriously.

Perhaps I was getting the hang of the job and understood my place in the world.

Perhaps it was because my friends and family were right behind me.

I don’t know why, but I’m not feeling depressed anymore. I hated myself in the past few days for being weak, but I knew I had to do that to remove everything from my system.

I know that there will be times when I’ll be getting depressed again for the same reasons, but I believe I can overcome that now and face it head on

My mind is clearer now, and I’m ready to face the world.

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